Your Garden
February 7, 2022
I watch your garden for you.
The birds and the flowers and
the petals with lonesome
dignity all wait, all watch,
and wonder when you’ll return.
I wonder, too, as I water the
freesias and the roses running
red as the cardinals all chirp
your long forgotten song.
Days are turning into weeks and
years pass by in your absence.
I watch your garden every day,
a hawk keeping watch atop a
perch of blooming daisies
that slowly fade to a storm’s grey.
Your flowers are thriving,
as I ought to tell you, oh,
am I heard? Are you there?
My letters are all returned with
no reply, no smiles, only regret.
Your name remains carved into
a stone, mounted by the rosemary,
and I don’t ever touch it.
Neglect dusts over it, unmarred by
fingerprints or footsteps of a
missing, missed lover.
A thousand years trickle by
as I stare at your dying garden
that I can’t seem to save
for I am a novice to your world’s design
and can’t maintain what I don’t
understand, don’t love, don’t have.
I weep in your lonely garden
for I cannot prevent it from wilting away.
I watch over your garden
but you are long, long gone,
wilted away with a dead daisy’s petals.
There is a boy who comes
and claims to know your name.
He asks when you’ll be back.
all I can tell him,
of course,
is that you already are.
Because you are the petals,
and you are the wind,
and you are the beauty etched into
forever. It’s never enough but
oh, you were enough and
the boy understands.
And as he leaves your doorstep,
he cries and the sky cries with him.
I watch over your garden each
and every day that drifts on by.
The boy joins me,
and we are no longer alone.
We plant new flowers
in the spaces you never finished.
Your garden is your gravestone,
and it is a lovely, wretched thing,
the last that you left behind.